The birth of a poem...

The essence of very tiny detail, like a carefully placed comma, or an invisible sigh of admiration, distilled into
dewdrops sliding over the long green leaves that protect
tulips from overexposure, redeeming the beautiful bold color
and adding a dimension of its own.

Then letting it go into thin air, like a weightless particle,
arriving in far-away places, like a carefully thought-out
idea, a blissful singular event, a flash of infinitesimal
brightness, arriving at noon, completely negating shadows
and at the same time completely absolving them.


The reign of calm arrived with these words and it is here to stay…

my visual dna

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Saturday, November 7, 2009

pensieri liberi

Quello che rimane è poco, o niente.

Tutte le speranze, i sogni, le aspettative, i pensieri dolci, giorno dopo giorno diminuiti, passando come grani di sabbia attraverso la parte stretta della clessidra fissa..Tempo passato diviso per sempre dal tempo che sta per passare, finche non si spezza il vetro..

 

Alcuni ricordi, sì, ma i sogni diventano pallidi, la dolcezza sconfitta dall’amarezza sparisce.. La freccia punta sempre avanti. Attimi volanti, bisogna svegliarsi e agire per non perderli..

Se ci metto ore a decidere, riflettere, scegliere, non rimane nulla.

O peggio, ci sono io, con poco o niente. C’è un mondo dietro la finestra. Basta aprirsi a quel mondo..senza nascondersi nella campana di vetro.

Quel poco che rimane nel pugno della mano è il mio tesoro. Gli amici sempre meno, ma sempre più nobili.

Tutto il resto che cade, sparisce, fugge, fa altre scelte..non mi appartiene, non dovrebbe interessarmi. Non posso lamentare la assenza di quello che non ho mai avuto veramente.

Faccio le mie scelte, le mie decisioni, i miei errori, le mie uscite. Scappo via..spesso, quando posso, quando l’ambiente diventa insopportabile, soffocante. Credo sia giusto. Non mi importa se con questo divento vigliaca, malatta, non ho tempo di pensarci, non ho tempo di perdere, non ho radici sotto le scarpe. Mi turba il richiamo del vento..

Poi, una vita triste non esclude altre variazioni. Non mi può giudicare nessuno, soprattutto quello che trova lo spazio di dire la sua dietro la maschera, essendo costretto di tacere con il viso aperto..

Così la vita prosegue, le persone vengono e vanno via..così i sentimenti, le vicende, le banalità, i miracoli, le lacrime e le risate..

Cambio strada dopo strada, dopo aver fatto la scelta, non mi fermo mai, trovo altre uscite nelle cose che mi aiutano a superare le delusioni, se si rivelano fantasmi anche loro, scappo di nuovo.

Scrivo, mentre scrivo, mi sento viva, utile.

C’è un libro con la copertina blu nelle librerie..porta il mio nome, l’ho scritto io..il pensiero mi rende serena e felice. C’è spazio vuoto per riempire quel poco..non è niente.

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Friday, November 6, 2009

A poem

Love as a pointed finger

A hand beckoning furiously

Love as a knife, carving

its way through niceties..

Love as a mask covering for

a multitude of deficiencies

Love for love’s sake

Love at love’s wake

At the death bed of all illusions

As time goes by...

Withered flowers clearly forgotten

Neglected by selective memory

Long hours spent in the dark

Feeling hopeless, seeking remedies

Anything

Anything but love.

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Thursday, November 5, 2009

November

Those are the illusions

So there is truth to loneliness

And I’ll drink to that

There are tiny islands

of silence, smiles and bliss

Dispersed in an ocean of sparcity

And possibilities

Each wave challenging the one before

Before it arrives to the shore

 

Reality is terra firma

After a bout of heavy storms

At open sea

And every little sailor

of the ship called My Soul

Becomes a captain, overwhelmed by bravery.

 

Sometimes little words, little thoughts

Count for so much

Sometimes tiny glimpses of hope

Send sunshine through the clouds

And if I remain long enough to see

I believe I can be

Someone who is strong

and if it makes a difference,

It means a world of a difference for me.

 

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Monday, November 2, 2009

Balkan rivers


Note:
This text was originally posted in Italian on the blog Cahier di viaggio. I've translated it here so that I could share it with my English speaking friends.
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From the springs
http://cahierdiviaggio.blogspot.com/2009/11/fiumi-balcanici-di-biljana-petrova.html

While I’m looking at old postcards representing the great rivers, the myths of the world: the Ganges, the Nile, the Amazon, and the works of art dedicated to their grandeur and immortal beauty of the flowing water...my thoughts become an arc, they build a bridge where I follow in order to arrive at the safe of memory, on the other side.

This thought comes to mind, about the rivers of the Balkan Peninsula, crossing, entwining and tracing their way through the land, not only as a part of the landscape, but also as part of the dna. Pure essence in the memory, in the tradition, history, in the stories of travellers from the past, from far away, yet so close..they always stop here, without a second thought, breathless, speechless, reflecting..

The Balkan rivers flow gently, slowly, taking water, tears, blood, destiny, hopes, disappointments and dreams away..
They’ve witnessed many brutalities, absorbed many cries, screams, mothers’ crying, warriors urging on..and yet they flow in silence. Sometimes one can learn a lot from a river. Some things are better left streaming, flowing in the ground, through the mind, with no judgment, just understanding.
The water flows, and it looks for the passage through mountains, forests, through cities and villages, it looks for the sea or the big brother that will take it to the sea..
Cold water, humble water..it makes you think, if you pause and listen to the rumour..the rhythm of the water brings calm, serenity, dreams, fantasies..the river becomes part of the soul, strong, moving, because it’s important to change in order to preserve the balance. Only the rock remains unperturbed.

The rocks of the bridges over the rivers. Sometimes the bridges on the Balkans are walls, dividing two parts, faiths, peoples..one brother from another, one look from another..a red line as a point of no return, no happy ending, no peace, no love, only hatred and conflicts. So it’s better to have respect for the bridge. Bear it in mind..because beyond the border, beyond the known, no coming back..
Water flowing under the bridge, sees everything and it keeps quiet.
The river Ibar has such a bridge dividing the town of Kosovska Mitrovica in two parts, Serbian and the one of the Kosovars. It’s a knot, a situation impossible to resolve..And the water does not stop..the flow continues..
The great Danube flows through some parts of the Balkans, in Belgrade it’s joined by the Sava and other rivers on its way to the sea..A melody comes to mind, but not the Strauss waltz, more along the notes of the tradition, the feasts, the popular instruments. The pride, the spite, that Balkan curse which leaves huge burrows behind and scars long after the wounds heal.
But the water remains clear..nothing remains, the water flows and life goes on..
From the Danube, my thought comes home, south.
And I think of the river Vardar..I wish my thoughts were made of paper, so that I could make so many little paper boats and let them flow along..and who knows whether they’d arrive, in the Aegean Sea, in the Mediterranean, to release me from my fears, my anxiety..that way I know that I am part of something much bigger than me, much more important..my thoughts bear the marks of the tiny drop that is me..but these are thoughts not so strange for the rest of the world.
And the water under the bridge knows this..it’s silent, but it knows it well..
As the greek philosopher says “panta rei”.